i am SO delerious right now as i sit in my publication design class.

to much brit lit on my brain and hanging over my head for my paper due tomorrow...
and everyday, more and more, i cannot believe that i actually sit through my ridiculous classes.

(see...i can't even spell "too" right now)

and i keep bursting out in laughter and i can't control it. dang it.

(stalling when i should be doing my brit lit paper)

a few things i've been thinking about lately...

• it's a darn good thing that God uses us even when we don't think we're doing ANYTHING that could possibly be of use to Him. i have been feeling for the past couple months that i am doing nothing worthwhile and really just floundering around with my life, right in between college and the real world. and thank goodness God knows when you feel that way and sends encouragment that keeps you going everyday.

(i.e. - there was an interview with me in the campbell times two weeks ago because i won homecoming queen. they had emailed me 8 or 10 questions to answer, and said they would choose a few to publish. one of the questions was something like "what's a major challenge you face?" i sat and the computer and thought about it for awhile, the obvious answer being my arthritis, but telling myself that i shouldn't use that answer b/c i don't want people to feel sorry for me. then i told myself that i should suck it up and answer the question correctly, b/c that's my life, and i shouldn't try to downplay it. so i answered the question, explaining my arthritis and mentioning my elbow replacement this past summer. the following monday, i received an email from the campbell times with an attachment email forwarded from a lady in tarboro who had seen the paper and wanted get in contact with me . turns out her 13-year-old daughter has severe arthritis in her elbow and is very apprehensive about having any surgery to correct it. in my reply, i asked her how she got her hands on a paper, and if she took night classes or something. she replied that her son happened to be at campbell that weekend for a boy scout conference and had picked up a paper and brought it home. she also told me that her daughter kept the paper and reads it often. -insert michelle cries her eyes out here- i have since proceeded to think to myself "what if the only reason i won homecoming was to be able to help that little girl? what if the only reason i know enough people to win is to help that little girl?" you just never know.)

• it's been a very interesting semester for me compared to the past 6 i've spent here. my life has changed a lot, for the simple fact that many of the people i used to spend all my time with have grad classes and boyfriends/fiancees and real jobs. so i find myself spending time with people that i haven't even really known in the past few years, yet i am SO glad i get to hang out with this year. i've been able to get to know and hang out with so many people from sga this year too, and that has really been a blessing to my life. i don't think i can possibly explain how much those people make my days. don't get me wrong, i'm very thankful for the time i do have with my old friends, but i realize that we lead very different lives these days. i hope we can continue to spend more and more time together, though, since this part of life is almost over for me.
• i'm really trying to do what i can where i'm at and with the time i have. it's REALLY hard, but i'm trying in so many areas.
• i have to say that i'm soooo thankful for katie and lindsay every hour of my life. they are incredibly different people, but they definitely share in the fact that they care and they have good hearts. can't ask for more than that.
• i was so happy to see my family at homecoming. and i am really looking forward to thanksgiving to see my family and old friends.
• i think that's all for now. i have GOT to do this paper.

breakfast clubbing toniiiiight!

i promise to post in the next few days...

i'm feeling very overwhelmed with everything right now and i really wish i had the patience and time to type it all out, but i'm getting there.

hope you're having a wonderful week!

can i post anything tim jenkins?

YES.