or am i part of the disease?

i actually have a lot on my mind today for some reason. so much that i can't even begin to write it all, but there are just a few things i wanted to put on here.

on friday when i was at the beach, i decided to start writing in a journal each day at least one thing that i learned, in hopes of publishing it (as long as i actually learn some cool things)...haha.

this was inspired because on the way back from myrtle beach to ocean isle, i was in the car doing my elbow exercises and trying to bend it, all while feeling pretty sorry for myself since i was the only one in the car who had an ailment that i had to tend to & because i still can't even pull my own hair back and simple things like that which are driving me insane. a few minutes later, we pulled into a gas station to buy lottery tickets and while we were waiting in the car, i saw a little girl get out of the car next to me and throw something out in the trash. when she turned around, i saw that she had no arm past her elbow...she had lost it somehow or another and looked like she had it amputated. i began to feel very lucky about having an arm to rehabilitate and was thankful to be reminded in the parking lot of a gas station. i don't even think anyone else in the car saw her.

the other thing i wanted to put on here are a few excerpts from a video we saw at a church my bro and i went to this morning. it was interesting...called "the paradox of our time"...here are a few lines from it:

we spend more, but have less; we buy more, but enjoy it less
We have bigger houses and smaller families; more conveniences, but less time; we have more degrees, but less sense; more knowledge, but less judgment; more experts, but more problems; more medicine, but less wellness.
We write more, but learn less; we plan more, but accomplish less. We've learned to rush, but not to wait; we have higher incomes, but lower morals; we have more food, but less appeasement; we build more computers to hold more information to produce more copies than ever, but have less communication; we've become long on quantity, but short on quality.

this video could definitely be considered a cliche churchy thing to show, but i do think it's interesting. definitely something for me to think about when i'm feeling unsatisfied. nothing here will ever satisfy me, so i'm obviously looking to the wrong places when i feel that way.